“To everything there is a season, A time for every purpose under heaven: A time to be born, And a time to die;…”
Ecclesiastes 3:1-2 NKJV
Flashes of the past 11 months of life fly by in my mind as I weep over my husband with gratefulness. He asks me, “Are you okay?” Tearfully looking at him I say, “Yes.” “Well what brought all this on?”, he asks. “The Holy Spirit,” I reply. I just weep for about 1/2 hour under the heavy presence of the Lord acknowledging His awesome miracle working power in our lives. (I started typing this up in August of this year.)
At that moment I was realizing just how very very fortunate we both were that Brad was alive and well. I wanted him to feel how humbled I was and how grateful I am to God. So much to the point that I began to weep under the weightiness of everything that has happened.
To write this blog and keep going there will be poetic moments and pauses to bunny trail back to memories of pain, beauty, observing the Holy Majesty of our great God! I hope that what you find on these typed blog pages is the constant - ever - present - goodness of God Almighty. That our story inspires you to go from "hoping for" to "complete faith it will or is going to". Hoping for is good, because a hope deferred makes the heart sick. (Pro. 13:12) A building up of our hope in Christ into a Faith that moves mountains (as small as a mustard seed) goes beyond our human finite thoughts, it is completely supernatural. Our journey from the beginning has been supernatural. Of course "normal life" lived in the past and now present in the natural, albeit intentionally we seek to live a life led by the Holy Spirit.
Before I met my husband Brad I knew Jesus/Yeshua as my Savior. I have had a deep relationship with Him. I heard His voice at a young and tender age and had made a decision to follow Jesus at the age of 10. I was filled with the Holy Spirit at 14 years old. I had found myself talking with Him often as I read His Word, wanting more understanding. He gave me just that and continues to build upon that foundation laid down so long ago. I consider myself so very blessed to have known Jesus for as long as I have. I knew in those moments of hearing the doctors tell me they didn't see a chance for Brad, I couldn't let my faith be broken and laid to waste. I'd come to far with Jesus. I knew I could let it out and tell Him I was upset, broken - hearted, wringing with fear to lose my beloved husband. He held me through and never left my side. He bolstered my tender heart up and asked the question: "Do you believe I will heal Brad, completely?" I said, "Yes, Lord, I do." Without hesitation I said this and knew He was building my Faith up in those moments. Instead of being tempted to pull the plug on Brad, I was encouraged to lean on Jesus and not fear based thoughts.
Here we are in October, where I am right now, it's raining and a little cool outside in lower northern Michigan. It's beautiful this time of year. We're actually in the middle of Sukkot, The Feast of Tabernacles. So many beautiful meanings and foreshadowing in the midst of this feast. I am reminded that in a short time the Lord will return and truly dwell with us, His people, His Bride and have Tabernacle with us! (Maybe I could expound on this a later time, as I am drawn to study deeper and further and create a curriculum for my own family. 😁)
Brad has been working so hard each week at Mary Free Bed. He goes in to his Occupational Therapy appointments and pushes himself there. Then he works out with the exercises his Physical Therapist had given him. He has good days and bad days. He will do really well one day and struggle the next time. It's not a smooth road... most aren't. They are meant to push us past our limits and realize that we can do so much more than we know we can. God is in the details! Brad is going to be doing a breathing test on Monday, October 17, 2022. Pray for that to go well and tell the doctor what they need to know to further help Brad. Brad's right foot is getting a little more movement in it, which is so amazing because for the longest time it wasn't! He thinks his longer strides on the treadmill are waking up the muscle! So exciting because he really wants to get back to driving!
A few pictures from the Daddy daughter dance that Brad and his dad, Larry took Brie, Belle, and Evvy to. Aren't they adorable! (Enter the thought of the song, "Great Is Thy Faithfulness."
As for our children they have had pink eye and fall colds. Just another reminder that immune systems must be built up and theirs certainly are. I have given them lots of holistic medicines and eye drops. They are doing well getting through them. The 3 middle girls all do ballet on Tuesdays, Elijah has Ju-Jitsu on Wednesdays, Elisha helps babysit, write her book (yeah you saw that coming 😉), and is in leadership with her youth ministry, Crossroads Farms. She and Elijah have been going since last year and really love it! The baby, I think got pink eye the worst but it's so so much better today. I look at them fighting through these "little" sicknesses and realize God's grace upon us as we've been through a whirlwind with "the stuff" of 2019.
I keep myself busy with Brad, the children, the dog (haha had to mention Lincoln boy), meals, housework, studying God's Word and prayer, the Feasts, Bread making (oh yeah), homeschooling, chauffeuring, now working on this blog, and our book. I am hoping to add many, many more things to this list. Not to keep busy but to use all my gifts for the Lord and build my skills.
I want to keep this a little shorter than what I had intended as to get this to you today. I will keep you updated. May the Lord bless you, may the Lord keep you, may the Lord shine His face upon you, may the Lord be gracious to you, May the Lord give you His perfect peace.
Until next time,
Shalom and blessings my friends.
The fires of life are the burning away of things we don't need in our lives and the paving for new life to grow and be built in them. 💜
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